“ At times, it felt so odd being with a man in such an intimate way who was not my husband. ”
I tried, I really tried, to stick with it. I planned to grow old with this man and possibly die in his arms.
~ Brenda Perlin
I was always on guard and I was always prepared for him to be upset with me. I had lived feeling uneasy and tense for so long.
Being married definitely took work. When we fought, I felt like I wanted to float away and drown, whereas before I knew I could walk away without any strings attached.
First of all, he was not my type. He was nice, considerate, unselfish and grounded; qualities I’d never experienced in a man. Usually, I went for the self centered, screwed up, “I’m lost, will you be my mother” type.
