“ I didn't care about goals or expectations any more, I was just determined to race my heart out. ”
The smallest issues can become the most important things in life and reality slips away.
~ David Millar
The past is as important as the future, but we only live in the here and now.
I'd just killed some of the best riders in the world - and I was clean. I'd taken nothing - no EPO, no cortisone, no testosterone, no painkillers, no caffeine. I had justified to myself that I was a great rider without drugs - yet perversely given myself the green light to dope again. I'd proved what I could do clean - how much more could I do if I was doped?
What an idiot I'd been. What a spoilt brat. What a bloody fool.
