“ It was like how people find other people to be in love with, all random and accidental and lucky. ”
Now I lay facedown on the bed, sobbing for the womanwho once slept here not knowing that someday one of herworst fears would come true
~ Jennifer Castle
Holding the knife with the blade against my palm, it became so clear how my life would only contain shadows now. Shadows of things gone; not just the people themselves but everything connected to them. Was this my future? Every moment, every tiny thing I saw and did and touched, weighted by loss. Every space in this house andmy town and the world in general, empty in a way that could never be filled.
Then I closed my eyes.That was it. That was Before. Now here we go into After.