“ I once heard someone say that the concept of moderation seems a little extreme, and tonight...I agree. ”
My boyfriends have all been as stoical as queen's guards. They'd been patient, committed, and dispassionate, and I'd had to really debase myself to extract any emotion, either grin or grimace, from them.
~ Koren Zailckas
I'd written Smashed not because I was ambitious and not because writing down my feelings was cathartic (it felt more like playing one's own neurosurgeon sans anesthesia). No. I'd made a habit--and eventually a profession--of memoir because I hail from one of those families where shows of emotions are discouraged.
My demeanor isn't that of a woman enraged. To see me slumped, glassy-eyed, holding a sandwich someone has cut for me into four manageable pieces, a person might tell you I look much more like a woman subdued.
I'm trying to figure out precisely which character flaw might be responsible for my latest life failure.