“ What we did see was that jealousy is fear: it can corrode even if quite baseless. ”
Whatever one of us asked the other to do - it was assumed the asker would weigh all the consequences - the other would do. Thus one might wake the other in the night and ask for a cup of water; and the other would peacefully (and sleepily) fetch it. We, in fact, defined courtesy as 'a cup of water in the night'. And we considered it a very great courtesy to ask for the cup as well as to fetch it.
~ Sheldon Vanauken
It is not possible to be 'incidentally a Christian.' The fact of Christianity must be overwhelmingly first or nothing. This suggests a reason for the dislike of Christians by nominal or non-Christians: their lives contain no overwhelming first but many balances.
Her death...brought me as nothing else could do to know and end my jealousy of God. It saved her faith from assault.
Both Heaven and Hell are retroactive, all of one's life will eventually be known to have been one or the other.
