No matter what you say, or how much you talk, someone isn’t really forgiven until you can stand beside them without wanting to slap them in the face.

~ Alan Heathcock

Alan Heathcock Anger Forgiveness Hate Honesty Letting Go Revenge

I wish I could take my brain and put it inside your head,” Winslow said. “Just for a moment. Then you’d know what all I can’t find how to say.

~ Alan Heathcock

Alan Heathcock Emotional Pain Emotional Wounds Grief Grieving Inarticulate Loss

Maybe awful things is how God speaks to us, Vernon thought, trudging up the lightless tunnel. Maybe folks don’t trust in good things no more. Maybe awful things is all God’s got to remind us he’s alive. Maybe war is God come to life in men. Vernon pushed on toward the light of day. He stepped out onto the ledge and into the heat, and it felt like leaving a theater after the matinee had shown a sad film, the glare of sunshine after the darkness far too real to suffer.

~ Alan Heathcock

Alan Heathcock Atheism Is Born Bleak Christian Behavior Loss Of Faith Misery No Redemption Suffering

You think some are bad or evil or whatnot, but somewhere along the way they were someone's baby, suckling the teat like anybody. Then something puts a volt in 'em and they ain't the same no more.

~ Alan Heathcock

Alan Heathcock Character Evil Wickedness

...Helen sipped peppermint schnapps and considered the world made of her design. My religion is keeping peace, she thought. It hadn't begun that way, was nothing she'd planned, but now she saw that's how it was. I just ran a grocery, she thought. I don't want this. I ain't the one to make the world right.

~ Alan Heathcock

Alan Heathcock Epiphany Honesty Integrity Justice Law Enforcement Peacekeeper

Laws on killing, even God's demands, didn't allow for peace. Not always. There'd still be pain; missing that child would break her parents' hearts. But what Helen knew, what she'd seen in those woods, would be too much for them, for everybody.

~ Alan Heathcock

Alan Heathcock Justice Justice Without Mercy Loss Of Faith Retribution Revenge The Big Peace

Sometimes I wish I was in the movies...Not to be famous or nothing. I just wish I was made of light. Then nobody’d know me except for what they saw up on that screen. I’d just be light up on the silver screen, and not at all a man.

~ Alan Heathcock

Alan Heathcock Disassociation Escape Running Away Unhappiness

The projector's beam lay warm on Walt's neck, and he knew they'd all been plucked from danger and love, from another time, another place, and set back into this dark, sticky-floored theater, in the heart of nothing much that mattered.

~ Alan Heathcock

Alan Heathcock Cinema Nothing