The past marks on your slate only live on in your memory, if you allow them to remain. They can't affect your future if they're no longer there.
~ Melody Jackson
I think the real problem is that you're afraid. Afraid of real love, and what it looks like, because you don't know what it is. The thing is, love is a risk, no matter what. It's just a risk you don't need to be afraid of taking.