Always be looking for what you can appreciate in the moment.
~ Stevie Puckett
All that happened before is part of the process that brought you to now. And that is all. Just a step along the way.
There are many ways your intuition can get a message to you. You will start to pick them up once you learn to quiet the mental chatter.
Personal development is an ever-evolving process of making more and better distinctions about who you are and what you want.
Stifling your emotions is not the way. Ignoring your emotions is not the way. Your emotions carry important messages for you. Take the time to receive the meaning.