Some alters are what Dr Ross describes in Multiple Personality Disorder as 'fragments'. which are 'relatively limited psychic states that express only one feeling, hold one memory, or carry out a limited task in the person's life. A fragment might be a frightened child who holds the memory of one particular abuse incident.' In complex multiples, Dr Ross continues, the 'personalities are relatively full-bodied, complete states capable of a range of emotions and behaviours.' The alters will have 'executive control some substantial amount of time over the person's life'. He stresses, and I repeat his emphasis, 'Complex MPD with over 15 alter personalities and complicated amnesia barriers are associated with 100 percent frequency of childhood physical, sexual and emotional abuse.' Did I imagine the castle, the dungeon, the ritual orgies and violations? Did Lucy, Billy, Samuel, Eliza, Shirley and Kato make it all up? I went back to the industrial estate and found the castle. It was an old factory that had burned to the ground, but the charred ruins of the basement remained. I closed my eyes and could see the black candles, the dancing shadows, the inverted pentagram, the people chanting through hooded robes. I could see myself among other children being abused in ways that defy imagination. I have no doubt now that the cult of devil worshippers was nothing more than a ring of paedophiles, the satanic paraphernalia a cover for their true lusts: the innocent bodies of young children.

~ Alice Jamieson

Alice Jamieson Abuse Alters Amnesia Child Abuse Child Rape Child Sexual Abuse Colin Ross Complex Mpd Cover Up Cult Devil Worship Dissociative Identity Disorder Emotional Abuse Fragments Memory Mental Health Mpd Multiple Personalities Multiple Personality Disorder Orgies Paedophile Ring Paedophiles Physical Abuse Psychiatry Psychology Ritual Abuse Satanic Ritual Abuse Sexual Abuse Spit Personality

I believe the perception of what people think about DID is I might be crazy, unstable, and low functioning. After my diagnosis, I took a risk by sharing my story with a few friends. It was quite upsetting to lose a long term relationship with a friend because she could not accept my diagnosis. But it spurred me to take action. I wanted people to be informed that anyone can have DID and achieve highly functioning lives. I was successful in a career, I was married with children, and very active in numerous activities. I was highly functioning because I could dissociate the trauma from my life through my alters. Essentially, I survived because of DID. That's not to say I didn't fall down along the way. There were long term therapy visits, and plenty of hospitalizations for depression, medication adjustments, and suicide attempts. After a year, it became evident I was truly a patient with the diagnosis of DID from my therapist and psychiatrist. I had two choices. First, I could accept it and make choices about how I was going to deal with it. My therapist told me when faced with DID, a patient can learn to live with the live with the alters and make them part of one's life. Or, perhaps, the patient would like to have the alters integrate into one person, the host, so there are no more alters. Everyone is different.The patient and the therapist need to decide which is best for the patient. Secondly, the other choice was to resist having alters all together and be miserable, stuck in an existence that would continue to be crippling. Most people with DID are cognizant something is not right with themselves even if they are not properly diagnosed. My therapist was trustworthy, honest, and compassionate. Never for a moment did I believe she would steer me in the wrong direction. With her help and guidance, I chose to learn and understand my disorder. It was a turning point.

~ Esmay T. Parker

Esmay T. Parker Alters Awareness Breakthrough Dissociative Dissociative Identity Disorder Education Healing Mental Health Mental Health Stigma Multiple Personality Disorder Multiplicity Psychiatric Hospital Psychology Split Personality Stigma Suicide Understanding

Of course, I should have known the kids would pop out in the atmosphere of Roberta's office. That's what they do when Alice is under stress. They see a gap in the space-time continuum and slip through like beams of light through a prism changing form and direction. We had got into the habit in recent weeks of starting our sessions with that marble and stick game called Ker-Plunk, which Billy liked. There were times when I caught myself entering the office with a teddy that Samuel had taken from the toy cupboard outside. Roberta told me that on a couple of occasions I had shot her with the plastic gun and once, as Samuel, I had climbed down from the high-tech chairs, rolled into a ball in the corner and just cried. 'This is embarrassing,' I admitted. 'It doesn't have to be.''It doesn't have to be, but it is,' I said.The thing is. I never knew when the 'others' were going to come out. I only discovered that one had been out when I lost time or found myself in the midst of some wacky occupation — finger-painting like a five-year-old, cutting my arms, wandering from shops with unwanted, unpaid-for clutter.In her reserved way, Roberta described the kids as an elaborate defence mechanism. As a child, I had blocked out my memories in order not to dwell on anything painful or uncertain. Even as a teenager, I had allowed the bizarre and terrifying to seem normal because the alternative would have upset the fiction of my loving little nuclear family.I made a mental note to look up defence mechanisms, something we had touched on in psychology.

~ Alice Jamieson

Alice Jamieson Alter Personalities Alters Dissociation Dissociative Dissociative Identity Disorder Embarrassment Mental Health Mental Illness Multiple Personality Disorder Psychologist Psychology Self Stigma Split Personality Stigma Therapist Therapy

The return of the voices would end in a migraine that made my whole body throb. I could do nothing except lie in a blacked-out room waiting for the voices to get infected by the pains in my head and clear off. Knowing I was different with my OCD, anorexia and the voices that no one else seemed to hear made me feel isolated, disconnected. I took everything too seriously. I analysed things to death. I turned every word, and the intonation of every word over in my mind trying to decide exactly what it meant, whether there was a subtext or an implied criticism. I tried to recall the expressions on people’s faces, how those expressions changed, what they meant, whether what they said and the look on their faces matched and were therefore genuine or whether it was a sham, the kind word touched by irony or sarcasm, the smile that means pity. When people looked at me closely could they see the little girl in my head, being abused in those pornographic clips projected behind my eyes? That is what I would often be thinking and such thoughts ate away at the façade of self-confidence I was constantly raising and repairing. (describing dissociative identity disorder/mpd symptoms)

~ Alice Jamieson

Alice Jamieson Abuse Alter Personalities Alters Anoretic Anorexia Anorexic Child Abuse Child Sex Abuse Depression Disconnected Dissociation Dissociative Dissociative Identity Disorder Headache Incest Internal Voices Mental Health Migraine Multiple Personality Disorder Porongraphic Self Confidence Sexual Abuse Survivor Trauma Voices

In this chapter I restrict myself to exploring the nature of the amnesia which is reported between personality states in most people who are diagnosed with DID. Note that this is not an explicit diagnostic criterion, although such amnesia features strongly in the public view of DID, particularly in the form of the fugue-like conditions depicted in films of the condition, such as The Three Faces of Eve (1957). Typically, when one personality state, or ‘alter’, takes over from another, they have no idea what happened just before. They report having lost time, and often will have no idea where they are or how they got there. However, this is not a universal feature of DID. It happens that with certain individuals with DID, one personality state can retrieve what happened when another was in control. In other cases we have what is described as ‘co-consciousness’ where one personality state can apparently monitor what is happening when another personality state is in control and, in certain circumstances, can take over the conversation.

~ John Morton

John Morton Alter Personalities Alters Amnesia Amnesiac Consciousness Diagnosing Diagnosis Diagnostic Criteria Did Dissociation Dissociative Amnesia Dissociative Disorder Dissociative Identity Disorder Dsm Dsm5 Exception To The Rule Forgetfulness Fugue Fugue State Memory Memory Loss Mental Illness Misdiagnosis Misunderstanding Mpd Multiple Personalities Multiple Personality Disorder Multiplicity Personality Switch Personality System Prejudice States Of Consciousness Stereotypes Stigma Switching

Why do I take a blade and slash my arms? Why do I drink myself into a stupor? Why do I swallow bottles of pills and end up in A&E having my stomach pumped? Am I seeking attention? Showing off? The pain of the cuts releases the mental pain of the memories, but the pain of healing lasts weeks. After every self-harming or overdosing incident I run the risk of being sectioned and returned to a psychiatric institution, a harrowing prospect I would not recommend to anyone.So, why do I do it? I don't. If I had power over the alters, I'd stop them. I don't have that power. When they are out, they're out. I experience blank spells and lose time, consciousness, dignity. If I, Alice Jamieson, wanted attention, I would have completed my PhD and started to climb the academic career ladder. Flaunting the label 'doctor' is more attention-grabbing that lying drained of hope in hospital with steri-strips up your arms and the vile taste of liquid charcoal absorbing the chemicals in your stomach. In most things we do, we anticipate some reward or payment. We study for status and to get better jobs; we work for money; our children are little mirrors of our social standing; the charity donation and trip to Oxfam make us feel good. Every kindness carries the potential gift of a responding kindness: you reap what you sow. There is no advantage in my harming myself; no reason for me to invent delusional memories of incest and ritual abuse. There is nothing to be gained in an A&E department.

~ Alice Jamieson

Alice Jamieson Abuse Alcohol Alcoholic Alter Personalities Alters Attention Cutting Dissociation Dissociative Dissociative Identity Disorder Emergency Healing Incest Memories Mental Health Mental Illness Multiple Personality Disorder Overdose Pain Psychiatric Psychological Ritual Abuse Self Harm Split Personality Suicide Attempt Survivor Trauma Victim

The vitamin, mineral, metal and oil content of the human body drastically alters its reactivity to radiation exposures.

~ Steven Magee

Steven Magee Alters Body Content Drastically Exposures Human Metal Mineral Oil Radiation Reactivity Vitamin

Weird? Absurd? That’s how it seemed to me. I had these forces, these compunctions, these alternative personalities inside me, driving me. It was like being a jack-in-the-box and I was unsure which personality was going to jump out next: Billy, who thought of himself as a cowboy or a terrorist; Kato the cutter; anorexic Shirley, whose only self-indulgence was binge drinking and the occasional salad sandwich. I didn’t dislike Shirley. I was afraid of her. Shirley knew things I didn’t.

~ Alice Jamieson

Alice Jamieson Abuse Alter Personalities Alters Amnesia Anorexia Dissociation Dissociative Dissociative Identity Disorder Identity Alteration Incest Memory Loss Mental Health Multiple Personality Disorder Personalities Sexual Abuse Split Personalities Survivor Trauma

Some alters are what Dr Ross describes in Multiple Personality Disorder as 'fragments', which are 'relatively limited psychic states that express only one feeling, hold one memory or carry out a limited task in the person's life. A fragment might be a frightened child who holds the memory of one particular abuse incident.' In complex multiples, Dr Ross continues, the `personalities are relatively full-bodied, complete states capable of a rang of emotions and behaviours.' The alters will have `executive control some substantial amount of time over the person life'. He stresses, and I repeat his emphasis, 'Complex MPD with over 15 alter personalities and complicated amnesic barriers are associated with 100 percent frequency of childhood physical, sexual and emotional abuse.

~ Alice Jamieson

Alice Jamieson Abuse Alter Personalities Alters Amnesia Child Sex Abuse Child Sexual Abuse Dissociation Dissociative Dissociative Identity Disorder Emotional Abuse Fragmentation Fragments Mental Health Mental Illness Mpd Multiple Personality Disorder Physical Abuse Sexual Abuse Split Personality Survivor Trauma Victim

Did I imagine the castle, the dungeon, the ritual orgies and violations? Did Lucy, Billy, Samuel, Eliza, Shirley and Kato make it all up? I went back to the industrial estate and found the castle. It was an old factory that had burned to the ground, but the charred ruins of the basement remained. I closed my eyes and could see the black candles, the dancing shadows, the inverted pentagram, the people chanting through hooded robes. I could see myself among other children being abused in ways that defy imagination. I have no doubt now that the cult of devil worshippers was nothing more than a ring of paedophiles, the satanic paraphernalia a cover for their true lusts: the innocent bodies of young children.

~ Alice Jamieson

Alice Jamieson Abuse Alter Personalities Alters Amnesia Child Sex Abuse Child Sexual Abuse Devil Worship Dissociation Dissociative Dissociative Identity Disorder Emotional Abuse Fragmentation Fragments Mental Health Mental Illness Mpd Multiple Personality Disorder Paedophile Ring Paedophiles Pedophile Physical Abuse Ritual Abuse Satanic Ritual Abuse Sexual Abuse Split Personality Survivor Trauma Victim

Dissociative identity disorder is conceptualized as a childhood onset, posttraumatic developmental disorder in which the child is unable to consolidate a unified sense of self. Detachment from emotional and physical pain during trauma can result in alterations in memory encoding and storage. In turn, this leads to fragmentation and compartmentalization of memory and impairments in retrieving memory.2,4,19 Exposure to early, usually repeated trauma results in the creation of discrete behavioral states that can persist and, over later development, become elaborated, ultimately developing into the alternate identities of dissociative identity disorder.

~ Bethany L. Brand

Bethany L. Brand Abused Children Alter Identities Alter Identity Alter Personalities Alter Personality Alters Child Abuse Compartmentalization Coping Mechanism Defense Mechanism Dissociation Dissociative Dissociative Identity Disorder Emotional Pain Memory Loss Mental Illness Personality Development Posttraumatic Posttraumatic Stress Sense Of Self Trauma Traumatized

Prior to the fourth edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV), the diagnosis of Dissociative Identity Disorder had been referred to as Multiple Personality Disorder. The renaming of this diagnosis has caused quite a bit of confusion among professionals and those who live with DID. Because dissociation describes the process by which DID begins to develop, rather than the actual outcome of this process (the formation of various personalities), this new term may be a bit un

~ Karen Marshall

Karen Marshall Alter Personalities Alters Dissociation Dissociative Disorder Dissociative Identities Dissociative Identity Disorder Dsm Mental Health Mental Illness Multiple Personalities Multiple Personality Disorder Multiplicity Psychiatry

Shortly after I began work with Teresa, I acquired another MPD client, a supposedly schizophrenic young man I will call Tony. He called in to the clinic on a day I was on telephone duty, saying he was having flashbacks of ritual abuse.” I did not yet know what that was. Tony became my client. He could be quite entertaining. I have a vivid memory of him as a three-year-old, Tiny Tony,” standing on his head on my office couch, and running down the hall to try unsuccessfully to make it to the bathroom. He had in his head the entire rock band of Guns’n’Roses, and I got to know Axl, the band leader, quite well. I remember the time Tony was in hospital and I went to visit him; Axl popped out and said, Remember, we’re schizophrenic in here!

~ Alison Miller

Alison Miller Alter Personalities Alters Dissociation Dissociative Disorder Dissociative States Mental Illness Misdignosis Mpd Multiple Personality Disorder Ritual Abuse Schizophrenia Schizophrenic

Among DID individuals, the sharing of conscious awareness between alters exists in varying degrees. I have seen cases where there has appeared to be no amnestic barriers between individual alters, where the host and alters appeared to be fully cognizant of each other. On the other hand, I have seen cases where the host was absolutely unaware of any alters despite clear evidence of their presence. In those cases, while the host was not aware of the alters, there were alters with an awareness of the host as well as having some limited awareness of at least a few other alters. So, according to my experience, there is a spectrum of shared consciousness in DID patients. From a therapeutic point of view, while treatment of patients without amnestic barriers differs in some ways from treatment of those with such barriers, the fundamental goal of therapy is the same: to support the healing of the early childhood trauma that gave rise to the dissociation and its attendant alters.Good DID therapy involves promoting co­-consciousness. With co-­consciousness, it is possible to begin teaching the patient’s system the value of cooperation among the alters. Enjoin them to emulate the spirit of a champion football team, with each member utilizing their full potential and working together to achieve a common goal.Returning to the patients that seemed to lack amnestic barriers, it is important to understand that such co-consciousness did not mean that the host and alters were well-­coordinated or living in harmony. If they were all in harmony, there would be no “dis­ease.” There would be little likelihood of a need or even desire for psychiatric intervention. It is when there is conflict between the host and/or among alters that treatment is needed.

~ David Yeung

David Yeung Alter Personalities Altered States Of Concsciousness Alters Amnesiac Dissociation Dissociative Amnesia Dissociative Disorder Dissociative Identities Dissociative Identity Disorder Mental Disorder Mental Illness Multiplicity Psychiatry States Of Consciousness

DelusionsDissociative disorders, even those created by mind controllers, are not psychosis, but this program will create the most common symptom used to diagnose schizophrenia. The child is hurt while on a turntable, with people and television sets and cartoons and photographs all around the turntable. New alters created by the torture are instructed that they must obey their instructions and become the people around them, people on television, or other alters when they are told to. When this program is triggered, the survivor will hear “voices” of the people whom the copy alters” are imitating, or will have many confused alters popping out who think they are actually other people or movie stars. The identities of the copy alters change when the survivor's surrounding change.

~ Alison Miller

Alison Miller Alter Personalities Alters Ddnos Delusional Delusional Disorder Delusions Dissociative Identity Disorder Famous People Fictional Characters Hearing Voices Mental Illness Misdiagnosis Movie Stars Psychiatry Psychological Psychosis Ritual Abuse Satanic Ritual Abuse Schizophrenia Sra

Another of the difficulties of having DID is the denial. DID is a disorder of denial. It has to be because if the original person knew about the alters and felt their pain, they would either go crazy and be hospitalized permanently, or would die.

~ Eve N. Adams

Eve N. Adams Alters Crazy Denial Did Dissociation Dissociative Identity Disorder Insane Mental Health Mental Illness Mpd Multiple Personality Disorder Split Personality