Sometimes it's good just to be seduced by the particular cheeses spread out in front of you on a cheese counter.
~ Nigella Lawson
...That Great Cocktail Cabinet in the Sky...
On the whole, I prefer Christmas as an adult than I did as a child.
I was a quiet teenager, introverted, full of angst.
You don't go around grieving all the time, but the grief is still there and always will be.
Also, in a funny way, if you have been happily married there are no unresolved areas, nothing to prove to yourself after the other dies.