Breathe in, breathe out. Over and over again.Just to prove a broken heart can't really kill you.

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Depression Hope Hopelessness

What are we doing, burying bodies? Admittedly, this would be a lace to do it. Isolated, off any main roads.Nope. We're going to war.

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Burying Boddies Humor Snowball Fights War

The idea of not being a kid anymore terrifies me. I am an adult and I have been hurled out of the world of boys and girls into the fray of men and women, and expected to function as a grown-up when I never functioned very well as a kid.

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Children Growing Up You Matter

The ledge isn't even wide enough for my feet to fit on completely. I hang onto the rail tightly and do a Casper does...leaning out slowly over the water. Like this, there is no safety. No rail to catch me if I slip. I'm almost flying. Between me and death, there is...nothing. Nothing in the way but my own decision to hang on.

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Depression Suicide

It's true,' he begins, 'that the universe is this big, vast thing, and humans will probably never explore even a tiny fraction of it. But that doesn't mean we're alone or we're displaced from it. All these elements, everything around us, the building blocks of the Earth and life -- even the very air you're breathing -- originated from those stars. We're a part of them. Orion, Draco, Sirius . . . they're a part of us, too.'Just like that, I can't keep my eyes off Chance. Even Rachael is momentarily entranced, looking bewildered and amazed all at once.I can't help thinking about it, how we could've all come from different stars, light-years away. Wondering, maybe, if Chance and I came from the same star. If that's what they mean when two people feel they've known each other in a past life.No, not in a past life -- but that the building blocks of one person's existence could have originated right alongside that of another's.I wonder if that's why I can't seem to shake him. Why so much of my life has been focused on someone like him.'So we're all made of stars,' I murmur. So much for not opening my mouth.Chance twists around, a sad smile on his face as his eyes meet mine. 'We're all made of stars,' he agrees. 'We burn bright, then we flicker away.

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Building Blocks Candle S Fickle Flame Everything Is Chance Life Made Of Stars Origin Of Love Universe

The Gay' is not infectious, the world is not coming to an end, and people are happy. Gosh, how about that.

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Gay Happy Lgbt Sarcasm

Except then I wonder what it's like to feel normal because if you take away the things I've felt all my life--the insecurity, the pain, the loneliness, the absolute dissolution of any sane or rational thought during one of my more manic moods and the helplessness when I realize one of said manic moods is creeping up on me (like right now)--what's left after the fact? Emptiness?

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Mental Illness

To be fair, she called this morning. I stared at the phone. Circled it on my bed. And, eventually, it stopped ringing. If it had been important, she would’ve called back, right? That was the line of thought that ran through my head until halfway through the day, when I started to feel bad about it.

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Guilt Phone

Chance likes to ride in back, standing up at red lights and pounding on the roof in (what he insists is) Morse code. We won't mention that to Dad.

~ Kelley York

Kelley York Chance Humor Morse Code